Mood Swings

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I am having some trouble with my mood and more so with myself. Generally, I try to stay cheerful. Even if I am not happy, I try to stay not sad. Today again, I am not in the mood to smile. I am hating everybody and everything. And I hate myself for that. I don't want to be this guy, but I can't help it. And this is becoming more and more frequent.

Everybody has their off-days, I guess. So, it must be normal for me also. Thus I convinced myself the first time. It was alright. If I can convince myself, I can convince anyone. And if not, who cares? I had a legit problem the second time, so I think that's ok. One can be allowed to be sad when there is a problem.

But what do I do when lightning strikes me again and again. (Yes, it is from that great Blue song, featuring Elton John.) And some say lightning doesn't strike the same place twice. Maybe it does. And then, I do have a fascination for lightning strikes. OK. My mood is getting better. Another example for the swings. Anyway, people can never get enough of gloating about their own selves and yours truly is no exception.

The song says Sorry seems to be the hardest word.... I don't really think likewise. But feeling sorry for oneself is definitely as hard as it gets.

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To Advise Or Not To Advise

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While reading the blog of a friend, I went through the comments as well, where another of my friends had commented something. I picked it from there and put it as the status note on the Office Communicator.

Then the coding keeda started popping its head up inside my head and I thought, let's write a simple function. Please review.

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void to.advise.or.not.to( )

{ if ( advice == add + vice )

do.not( );

else

throw.exception( );

}

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Nice little function...

And did you notice the 'c' and the 's' ?

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Back To The Blog, Again ....

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Hey Yo!!

The last time I took a break from blogging, it was just for doing nothing. And when I came back to the blogosphere, I started with the same greeting. Hey Yo!! This was what Scott Hall aka Razor Ramon used to start his promos with when he was in his prime, wrestling for the then-WWF and later for WCW. I liked his character and his in-ring style. Nostalgia...

Anyway, I have been out of this world again for some time. At first I did not have anything to post, then when I had something I didn't have the desire to post. Even now I don't have anything, but there is this lack of I-don't-know-what which is pushing me to post again. Maybe its just the desire to do so.

I have been in the middle of a few things in the meantime. I moved from the institute hostel to my hometown, then to Hyderabad to join this job I did not really want to join. Then I kept moving from place to place in this new city. I have now put my feet to rest here in this place which I share with my friends from the institute.

I bought a new bike, then a new watch and now my account says its nearing the reserve. What next? Whoa!! The company goes bust, fake balance sheets and all... biggest scam in Indian corporate history, some say. What now? I don't really know. This ultra-senior guy who heads the business unit I work for says one thing is for sure. However way we all come out from this debacle, we all will be better, more mature people and will thank The Almighty for the experience. Yeah right!! What is an atheist supposed to do? Thank Raju?

I guess I am not one of the worst hit. See, I don't have any responsibilities as of now. Think about the family (wo)men, who have got to pay the bills for their childrens' education and all those other things that come with a family. Whenever I try to think about all these people, whenever I try to count those affected directly and indirectly, I feel disgusted. But I despise those even more who are pointing their accusing finger at all the people in the organization. I guess they forget where the rest of their own fingers are pointing. Such times really expose the nature of people.

I mean, its a handful of the people who are guilty. And I am not going to support them. But at the same time, I am not going to pull my swords out. Who are we to judge anybody? Actually that's the biggest problem we have. We just can't stop judging people. It won't matter to us if we ourselves go the same route we condemn, if nobody was looking. Honesty is indeed rare.

Moving on to the brighter spots in the past few months, Liverpool are doing great this season. They beat Man Utd, beat Chelsea at Stamford Bridge, came good in the Christmas period, qualified from group phase of Champions' Leauge as leaders. Most of the things are looking great about the team, save for the two big slip-ups against Spurs. There were a few draws, but I guess they are alright since we are still leading. The Merseyside derby is coming up twice and in quick succession. Some would say the Premier Leauge tie is more important than the FA Cup one. Am I being too greedy if I want a win in both?

I think this has become a very lengthy post and I have not even started about things and people who I have been thinking too much about recently. Its better to keep those for the next post, I guess. Until then ....

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