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Its been some time I haven't talked to her. I saw her last month, but I said 'hi' and she said it back. That was it. Just that. Doesn't qualify as talking... right? Or does it? Was there something in her eyes that I could not comprehend? I don't have the slightest of ideas.
I don't know what she is doing? Or what she is up to? I am not saying this in regards with "us", but in general. Where are we headed? What's up and coming for me, for her, for us? I don't have the slightest of ideas.
Now that I think of it, its been long since we decided to part ways, but there was no mention of any full stop. No, she didn't mention it and I didn't either. Then why is there this awkward space between us whenever we get close enough to see each other eye-to-eye? I don't have the slightest of ideas.
Why can I not stop thinking about her all the time? Its been far too many times now that I read the opportunity to take steps forward towards new relationships, but I always feel that jamming sensation which doesn't allow my feet to get out of the hibernation that I don't exactly despise. But I don't relish it either. Yes, I must do something about it. But what? I don't have the slightest of ideas.
Is it the fear of losing her forever that has bound me since? No, there were others before her and I don't miss them as much. Why her? It must be the absence of that "clean break" with her, that has got me puzzling myself. Or is all this meant to eventuate with her in my life. I have to go and talk it out with her. I can not let this go on forever. I must do what I have to do. And, I might lose what I have to have. Is that what I truly want? I don't have the slightest of ideas.
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10 comments:
hehehehe kya yaar gunde hehehehehe
best of luck this time anyways ;)
but isn't it a long time ?? and you still a kid hehehe??
allah kare tu bhi phone liye terrace pe ghumta nazar aaye hahahahahaha
yaar agar ye pata hoga ki karna kya hai to funda hi kya tha phir .. (in all aspects of life i mean) ..
funda to vaise simple hi hota hai ..tht u speak out wht u think .. but thn kehne ka hi simple hai ;)
so I guess .. keep d introspection goin .. nd d time u wont b able to bear it nemore .. u will have a plan ..either this way or tht way ..
gud luck to u dude !!
saale tum log hi to telecom companies ka per bhar rahe ho :D
ahh.. doesnt it hurt to know that you're not the most perfect person for the most perfect person for you?
awesome post. will keep my eyes open for more! :)
i am experiencing deja vu.
badhiya hai .... bhagwaan tumhari manokamna poori kare.
kya batayeing gunde... us din terrace pe tune confess kiya tha ki tune Th*#$k#na band kar diya hain.Then why this introspection buddy???
On a serious note... every relationship needs customisation with respect to yourself and your source of introspection. So do the home work properly before venturing out.
Cheers
alive or not..
you r not active on blog now.. :x
@baggad
yes it has been quite long.. and yes I am still a kid.. or so I think..
I had to do some of the things, I have done since writing this and...
upar wale ka karam hai bande pe
ki ab to terrace par ghoomne ke bhi bahane hain ek se jyada
@Anuj
pehle to nahi bhar raha tha..
telecom companies ke liye kuch nahi kar raha tha..
ab to khair baat hi kuch aur hai
waise baat to yaar teri bhi sahi hai.. we complicate things unnecessarily.. bol do bas jo man me ho..
@deadforlife
welcome to the house of tirades.. :)
and yes it does.. and there is nothing that can help you out..
@push
welcome to the house of tirades.. :)
yes.. copied n pasted.. just to prove my worth as an IT professional.. ;)
@chauhan
are kaun si manokamna gurudev? yahan to buddhi bhrasht ho rakhi thi...
khair ab to kafi distractions hain mere pas..
@badri
agar th*#$k#na band kar diya hota
to shayad gam-e-zindagi kuch aur hota
par ek baat jo hai sheeshe ki tarah saaf
tab, main main nahi, koi aur hota
The point is at the time of writing this, I wasn't thinking about venturing out, which I admit, I eventually did....
@MAD
haan ji sir... thousand apologies..
I will try to bee regular thid time around..
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