Mood Swings

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I am having some trouble with my mood and more so with myself. Generally, I try to stay cheerful. Even if I am not happy, I try to stay not sad. Today again, I am not in the mood to smile. I am hating everybody and everything. And I hate myself for that. I don't want to be this guy, but I can't help it. And this is becoming more and more frequent.

Everybody has their off-days, I guess. So, it must be normal for me also. Thus I convinced myself the first time. It was alright. If I can convince myself, I can convince anyone. And if not, who cares? I had a legit problem the second time, so I think that's ok. One can be allowed to be sad when there is a problem.

But what do I do when lightning strikes me again and again. (Yes, it is from that great Blue song, featuring Elton John.) And some say lightning doesn't strike the same place twice. Maybe it does. And then, I do have a fascination for lightning strikes. OK. My mood is getting better. Another example for the swings. Anyway, people can never get enough of gloating about their own selves and yours truly is no exception.

The song says Sorry seems to be the hardest word.... I don't really think likewise. But feeling sorry for oneself is definitely as hard as it gets.

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