2 + 2 = ??

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One would think it is the simplest of sums, but as has been the case many a times, not really.... can be five (Amitabh Bachhan & Shashi Kapoor established this in Do Aur Do Paanch) .... can be <= zero as well.

I had 2 amazing days this past weekend. Friends from good old college days were visiting us - The Hyderabad Gang. I wonder sometimes why do we call all our groups gangs, city-wise. I think it started with The Bang Gang, corny.... eh? I never think of Bangalore/Bengaluru when I register this sound in my head.... ;)

Anyway, it was great fun. Though I didn't exactly do much with the guys, talked a bit with them but saw them doing many things. Someone was preparing grass for 7-8 odd guys, someone was busy changing songs on the music system (almost always asking others ... ye gaana sun tu ... ), someone was busy shouting at him ocassionally to change the songs to ghazals and then crooning the same at the top of his vocal capacity, someone was crying his inebriated heart out, someone was busy smashing all the records (mostly his own) of intoxicated stupidity, someone was getting all kinds of abuse for coming all the way to Hyderabad and not staying with friends. He had to meet his girlfriend. Anyway, it was all fun.

I had gone to a job fair as well on Saturday morning. I wasn't really looking for a job there, just looking at the scenario. It was a big circus and there were no cool animals around, just lame jokers. I guess then and there, someone else would have been thinking the same about me. I certainly did. I wondered what the hell was I doing there and then started having some fun, cracking jokes with my friend who had accompanied me.

Then there was this birthday party I went to, where the guy to girl ratio was a whopping 1:9 and almost everybody was looking absolutely gorgeous. There are always exceptions and one look in the mirror on the wall confirmed this for me. I had a hard time trying not to ogle at the beautiful people.

2 good.... But then I had 2 really bad days. Work is going on alright, not great though. I don't know what is missing, but the zing is just not there. And I am not happy with certain things and a few people there. I am not angry. I work hard on my anger, try to let it go, convert it into something else, something bright. And when I fail in doing this, it gets converted into disappointment (like right now). And then I regret why did I ever start this thing, whatever it is.

I have thought about walking right up to these people and giving them a piece of my mind or maybe discussing this in a gentlemanly manner, but then I get confused if this would be way too impulsive on my part. The fact that some of these people have the most charmingly beautiful smiles doesn't help either. I have come to the conclusion that I should just let things take their own time and let time take its own course. But then again, I get confused what would be worse - saying something and wishing I had not or saying nothing and wishing I had. I don't know.

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